I Love You... Or You?

“Remember the red wolf story?” say’s my mother with a nervous voice as she plays with her fingers in her lap, she seems a bit more nervous then she was when I hugged her downstairs. I smile at her knowing of that story, “everyone knows of that story, we all heard it at school when we were pups mom.” I tell her with a small snicker, Samie sighs and rolls her eyes like i'm missing the point of something, ‘what’ I mouth at her surprised she is actually reacting like that what gives. Samie looks up and shakes her head, I roll my eyes at her “If you know it mind telling me, kinda wanna know your version, pppplllleeeeaaaasssseee?” Samie tells me with a big sarcastic grin and holding her hands together like a drama girl, mom giggles at her response with drama and shakes her head. I close my eyes and take a breather “Okay? Well there once was a wolf, a big red colored wolf, who did no harm to anyone, he met different creatures, lived in different places, but he liked being with humans more than any other, one day he became friends with the humans, he even fell in love with one, turns out she was his fated mate.” I say, remembering when my mom used to make the voices for the creatures, like the goblin, the vampire and I think an elf too, made me giggle. I breath a bit more feeling my head hurt a little “one day his mate had a baby, after the baby was born, his mate got sick and he prayed to The Moon Goddess so she can heal her, The Moon Goddess saw how much he loved her, how good he was tp all the creatures, so she blessed him with the power to heal any wound she had, when he was blessed he was turned into a big red wold.” I reenacted my mom’s version because it was the only one that got stuck “but it came with a price.” I stopped for a moment because my cell vibrated. I was going to get it but my mom put her hand to have my cell, I sigh heavily and I passed it to her, after I sat back down, I continued. “Each time he would heal her, a year of his life was taken away, so he could only use it when it was really necessary. Before he died The Moon Goddess said that his gift of healing others would be passed on to all his children, every last one of them. The end.” I say as I put my hands on the sides like taking a bow, remembering how my mom used to tell it, I felt kinda silly saying an old kids story. We laugh a little at my drama, but it’s the story every child knows apart from the hunters and other creatures, why was she getting me to think about that when all I want is to meet my wolf and mate, guess it was sorta cute to get my head out of the nerves, or am I missing something here, my mom puts my cell down the small coffee table in between us. I pick it up as she goes on to talk, “Sue, when tonight you get your wolf, please don’t run with the pack, as a mother and Luna I ask you don’t, I know my pack is very far from here but I need to make sure you and Samie are well with your first shift, hopefully you get your wolf tonight honey, if you don’t it's okay. We can always wait for the full moon or just live as it is.” All this she says with a trembling voice, but what has me really nervous is my mom doesn’t look at me and I feel a pang of fear. Does she know something I don’t? Won't Samie also go thru this, I need Mykel, I start to reply to Mykel, when my mom stands up. So I stop typing the text I was just about to send, “Mom what do you mean if I don’t get my wolf? Of course I am going to get my wolf, why are you asking me about a kids story and then saying I won’t have a wolf, is this some kind of mean joke?” she doesn’t answer me instead my cell starts vibrating and I see Mykel is calling me. I pick it up to talk to him but my mom tries to stop me instead. I look at her confused and a bit angry, wondering what she was hiding from me on my birthday. And I was really annoyed at how Samie is just there like nothing is bothering her, seriously. “Hello? Baby are you there? I was getting worried that you took off without telling me anything, do you need me for something? Sue?” he sounds a bit worried that I never replied to him, guess he missed me a lot. I smile at how worried he is for me, “Hi, no I haven’t left just having some girl time with mom, how did things go?’’ I look at how my mom sighs heavily, she is worried for me too but with what? After this small story telling and telling me what not to do. I give it no real importance, I go and hug her with my cell still in my ear. I hear him breathing a bit faster,“Lame wants me to help him build some wall and stuff, but I have my own pack to take care of, he is just being a brat, hopefully after today I do not have to come back here. I don’t mind saying hi to your dad or Kia you know it’s just…. Ugh it’s” He says with one big irritated groan, mom and me giggle. I let go of her so she can go in her room as Sam follows her, “yup on the lame part, I totally agree, he needs to get his s**t together, listen baby would you mind if I stay with mom and Sam? They want to hang out with me and get ready together, meet me at 7:30?” bit my lips hoping he is okay with it, Mykel is a little possessive with me and I like it but he can get pretty scary sometimes. He breathed a bit heavy, “I will pass by with your dress, shoes and get the makeup bag from your dad’s with some fast food, sounds good? Get Kia to take the stuff when I drop them up front or I will drop them myself.”, I smiled at his reply. I hope he does drop by so I can see you for a small bit, please?” I cross my fingers, “Sure see you soon Sue.” He hung up like nothing, no good bye babe, no I can’t wait to see you. Maybe I asked too much of him today, I will make it up to him later, my mom walks back looking at my cell, she looks at me worried after I spoke to him like he owns me, it makes him happy to hear I belong to him. I like it, sorta, I hang up and Sam hugs me. Over her shoulders she asks “Mom, why are we not allowed to run with Alpha Jaime’s pack? I mean aren’t we going to get in trouble if we do that?” Samie asks my unspoken question. But my mom just hugs us both tight. “Samie, our pack has other rules that help us more than they help the ones of this pack. I have my reasons, just do as I ask and nothing bad will happen, okay Sue and Sam?” are her words, they get me more confused, it’s like she has to hide whatever she really wants to say, we both nod, someone knocks on the door, when I open it I get a flying Kia on me with two more omegas that are bringing my moms bag and dinner. “I can’t wait to find my mate tonight! Aren’t you excited!” she says jumping up and down like a little bunny, making me giggle at her cute jumps. “Yea, I am dying to find my hunk, do you have any idea who it might be for you Kia? I hear the Beta has no mate yet, what if it’s you?” I say as I help the other omerga set the food, for her to leave, once the omega leaves the door is stopped by someone's foot.

Jaime POV “Let me in now, Susie.” I say as I can hear them talking amongst them, I need these moments to make up for the horrible choices my dad and I took, how the hell was I supposed to know she would be a Luna. Ugh, “Maybe they are busy Jaime, leave them be”, says my Beta Callum, I breathe heavily knowing I really don’t need this right now. As we walk in I can see who is in the room surprised to see Kia one of my omegas here, she is lucky Callun as a freaking crush on her, the girl is no way in our level of command, but Callum feels otherwise, he better be telling me the truth or I am banishing her, one less mouth to feed. I stop in front of the Luna, yea I know I am in just gym shorts with Callum but maybe I get some points by being her secret model, “I am sorry for interrupting this gathering but I wanted to make sure you were being well taken cared of Luna Reemy and Samie, it has been some time since we last saw each other.'' With a smile on my face,Reemy was kicked out when she divorced my Gamma with Susie and Sam, uncommon to hear but it happens, they were never fated but chosen, then one day she met her fated, Alpha Dante. Susie came back a couple of years ago because her dad was in a Rogue attack, knowing she doesn’t trust my dad and me. Susie POV I stand at the door just stary, trying not to drool, I mean i have Mykel, I like him a lot but when Jaime is around I don’t know I just,“Thank you, we are all fine, we will see you at 8, Alpha Jaime and Beta Callum.” My mom says in a dry voice, she does not like him one bit, not long after Mykel enter’s with like 4 boxes of pizza and two bags on his other hand that has my dress on top, I forgot the door was still open, startelling us all even Beta Callum. “S**t did you scare the wolf out of me, Mykel, what are you doing all that by yourself? Where are the omegas?” says Callum, who is still nervous, Kia is holding a small giggle after his reaction, she goes to Mykel and grabs his bags, leaving him with just the pizza boxes. “Well don’t we have a full house?” He comes over and kisses me. I knew he wasn’t that mad at me, I'm a good girl, as Alpha and Beta leave the room, Mykel waits for me to make sure I have everything and when I do he leaves us all but takes 2 boxes. Saying it’s his tip for the trouble, I laugh at that. We eat the food and chill for a bit as mom tells me the new member in her pack and the random attacks of Rogues that have been going, I got a bit scared when Samie said there are new Hunters on the area, I overheard Mykel say something about that not too long ago but that wasn’t so close as being near the border of the packhouse. Hunters have always wanted to use us werewolves for their own gain, they still believe the legends and kids stories of the Gemini wolf, the Healing wolf, the Spinks and stuff like that. Almost finished with the food I see. It's already 7 and I quickly swallow my food to go get a shower before anyone else. I enjoy taking my time in the shower, putting on my lotions of roses and honey, I put on my clothes and start doing my hair in loose curls, I leave it down. I put on a smokey eye, mascara and blush with peach lipstick, I get my heels on and turn to the full mirror on the bedroom. I check myself to make sure nothing looks bad, I walk out to see everyone ready, my mom is wearing s triples red over the knee dress with a french braid in heels, Kia is in a tight, leather turtleneck dress, purple colored with a simple cat eye and pink lips, she has a ponytail on her small square head and Samie is in a green spaghetti dress with flats. Once we are down, I am surprised to see Beta Callum is there also dressed in purple, he sees Kia coming down and she blushes a bit, I gaaww at them being all cute but he looks daggers at me so I quickly stop. Samie goes with a tuxedo dad to the ball, mom goes with her mate, Alpha Dante and I don’t see Mykel but walking down to the last step I bump into Alpha Lame, greate. Jaime POV Later in the night I started doing my greetings. everyone that comes in is going to drive me insane, I need to pull one out or something, do you hear me Kai? I tell my wolf, knowing I have no mate to ravish, makes this part of “Alpha moral” even more a pain in my furry ass. “Good night Alpha Jaime, how has the building been going?” Asks Alpha Dante with his actitud, I get it I have a reputation, big deal, he’s Susie’s step dad, I place a fake smile at his question and extend my hand at the man, we shake. “I have yet to finish seeing as Alpha Mykel is in doubts, but I might take his advice on placing his warriors to protect that area, just to finish this my pack can’t take another hit like it did a while ago” I tell the guy, all while looking for Susie now that I am thinking again of her, the woman is a sassy big mouth that can get on my last nerves, but man is she hot. Hard to believe she is in lockdown with Mykel, my hero. He takes his hand away, “I would think of that a bit more than simply accept, perhaps there's another pack that can help you”, he answers me with a cocky smile well let’s see if he is in or not. “Are you offering?”. He starts to actually laugh at my question, then he starts to walk behind me, it seems odd he would be here so early considering his pack is literally day’s away from mine yet… “Hello cutie!” howls Kai and actually howls at the sight of Susie. Wow. I stay rooted to the ground as I see Susie walk in her tight dress, leaving very little to the imagination. That's a really woman’s body man would I want to have that tonight, the hit of her smell of chocolate and strawberries get my wolf all riled up again. “Tell me you can smell that Kai” I ask my wolf, a big dark brown with my eyes, the wolf hasn’t allowed me to be with zero she wolfs after the first 4 months of shifting, I feel like the guy wants me in celibacy for sure. “She is mate, hopefully” he answers with annoyance. I walk a bit closer as she is looking for her fake puppy of a boyfriend. “Been holding for 2 years and 8 months, we mate tonight” I chuckle at his statement but I am annoyed, he is the one making me hold not the other way, “what if she has no wolf?” I saw walking a bit faster. “Then we get rid of her, no point on a wofless girl” shaking his head. I approve of that, maybe he will let me have a go on rounds? “Yes, but don’t overdo it, pick a good Luna.” I roll my eyes, of course I want a Luna, I stay still in front of the stairs she is walking down and she bumps into me, perfect. She puts her hand on my chest, as she does I feel a hand on my shoulders, I look on my back and there is Mykel too charming snob, what does she see in this guy anyway’s. “A rogue is never good news”, can’t deny facts, he has her brainwashed, I shake my shoulder to him and pin Susie as I hear another person take his attention. Holding her hands in the side of the stairs, I put my nose on the side of her neck breathing her scent. “Looks like you are asking for my attention cutie Susie” she tries to push me away, I place one hand on her neck and the other on her hip, “now why would you want to hurt me? For all you know we are, more closer than this.” I kiss her forehead and Mykel pushes me away from her. I straightened my blue navy suit and fixed myself, “glad you could join us Mykel”. I say rolling my sleeves back up,Susie hugs him tight, “You scared of just that like? Some Gamma’s daughter I have, scared of the Big Bad Alpha?” I laugh at that joke as does the rest of my pack. “Picking on her is a low blow Alpha Lame”, Mykel responds with a smirk as he rubs her back to calm her, why does that bother me so much? “She is mate!” my wolf tells me again, but if she was, she would be the one to feel it too. I look at my watch and it’s already going to be 10, I smile at that. “I do what I want to my pack, all my intentions are good, right Cutie Susie?” my smirk at calling her that is in full display till she goes ahead and ruins my fun. “I am so glad I don't have to stay with a Lame excuse for an Alpha, Baby can we please go?” she asks Mykel that starts to walk away with her, tsk. We will see. Mykel POV Finally back in the room Jaime gave me. After I place my clothes out, I shower, taking my time before I get my drama classes back up. Can’t wait for all of this to end, I can’t stand Susies sassy actitud, needy b****y mood, a good smack on her would help her learn her place, wouldt be the first time she earns one either, but since dearest mom and dad divorced, she has been this broken puppy, easy to see when you get to know her. I met her at a gathering. She was with her dad the Gamma of this pack, I was with a witch disguised as a wolf, when she told me what I have been dying to get my hands on, the red wolf is her, my grandfather was beyond excited to plan her capture, the witch is my fated mate but I need Susie so I had to be on a very long break, when this is over my girl will punish Susie for taking her place. I just hate Susie in general, she is not my type, in fact she is everything but a woman. The first time I hit her she was in complete shock, but I quickly saw what I did so I hugged her and begged her to not leave me, because I will change for her. Ou I will change alright, but I won't hug her ever again.

As I place the last buttons on my sleeves, I picture what her wolf will be, I know she is the daughter of that healing wolf. My grandfather tried to marry her grandmother years ago, but she met her mate, and so did my grandpa but he still regrets leaving her, he literally found out what she was after he met his mate by accident. Imagine what joy his own dad felt being a werewolf hunter himself, that is why he is so excited to know there is still hope and so close to, we need her not just to stay healthy, strong and powerful. Something the old nursery stories don’t tell you is that there is always more than just a simple kid's story. My cell starts to vibrate and there she is my little witch b****, “Tell me she already got her wolf the suspense is killing me.” are the first words she says, I know she is dead tired of Susie who would blame my sexy girl, “sorry baby she is still useless, no wolf yet still not 12” I hear her yell on the other side, “She just needs to do one miserable thing and not even that can she do? F**k, when she does get her furry monster she is healing my anger as a human, with each hit I give her in her very special cage all for little miss luna.” I love my girl Blaze, she is a hot witch with a model figure. She had brunette-colored hair but after trying to heal my grandpa from his broken shaw she lost some of her power, healing a wolf after a battle with a wizard is not easy to recover alone. My poor girl hates what happened to her, she has brown eyes and is perfect in every way, she dresses mostly in a fashion which for me is a big turn-on, always in blue, “Babe I need to go. I love you?” I don’t hear anything from her end so I hang up. I got another call from my grandfather this time, “Yes?” is my reply to his call, “Are you in a bad mood already?” I have to breathe a bit, I just can’t handle him at times, I am not doing a single wrong thing with everyone. “No grandad, I am just getting ready and I am growing impatient.” “Well, I just wanted to call to say, if it doesn’t go thru don’t fear we have planned well, and you have been an excellent boyfriend. Remember the Red Wolf, or Fire Healer, can heal anything, of anyone they choose, just like the story goes. Only the stories don’t say that those who were healed by the red wolf, also gain a year of life, they become stronger, fierce, and more powerful.” My grandfather says I know this story by memory, but I know it to the point of having my grandfather drooling from it, “ For example, let’s say I break my hand after hearing both you and my girl yelling at me, just cause I need to take my stress out on something. Well, Susie, my Red Wolf heals me with her healing fire, making me a stronger, fierce, and even more powerful Alpha.” My grandfather chuckles “That's right, now lastly the new hunters arrive tomorrow with their families, remember the deal that was made to them.” he hangs up. I am Alpha now even though my grandfather is alive and well, my dad is another story, my trust in this pack will soon end and I can finally be in a sense of mental peace. I call my Beta Keanu to make sure the Rogues we made a deal with are ready to take my wolf to my pack, the only reason I visit so much here is so I could plan this attack and take both Red Wolves with me. Tonight, my grandfather will finally have his health back and I will finally destroy this shit of a pack. “Everything ready?” I speak while taking my things to give them to the omega outside, it takes all of my willpower to smack the cocky face of that little omega. “Yea I just arrived to oversee things, your dad is staying behind to keep things going.” not yet. I can’t show my real intentions just when I am so close to being, Alpha Jaime always rats me out, he is on to me, acting like I am head over heels to this bimbo is getting to me. I finish putting my things in their bag, as I walk out of the room, I go into the designated areas I placed the explosives in, once her wolf was out we would take her with us. All was safe and secure, when I walked to the stairs where Susie would walk down from, she was pinned to the wall. Susie POV I hold on tight to Mykel, what Jaime did make me feel so wrong like I was a barbie doll or something, I never had someone do that to me, with his Alpha Wolf strength of course I wouldn't be able to fight back, I tighten my grip on Mykel, holding back my anger at how he did that in front of everyone. “Baby are you alright? Or do you want to go? We don’t have to stay if you don’t want to.” I hear Mikel ask me as we walk to the big ballroom. “No, my mom came all this way for this and I really want to have some fun with my family.” As soon as those words left me he growled at me, I looked up at his expression and he was angry, what the. “Sue! Are you okay?” Kia comes over with a soda for me. I don’t like to drink. I'd rather have soda or coffee, preferably soda. “Alpha Lame had a mini-show with me, and I wasn't really invited.” Kia breathes heavily knowing herself how he can be. “Well hey at least your mom is here with Samie, still shocked at your stepdad being here, isn’t he an Alpha? I nod at her question, yeap he is but his pack lands are near the coast so he is very far from this pack, I start drinking my soda waiting for Mykel to say something about what happened, but he just keeps checking his cell. I stay still hearing Kia talk with me on different stuff like the latest she crushes that Cullom keeps getting, Kia is annoyed, it's cute but seeing her also gush over him is funny. I have a weird sense of humor. Yet I can’t stop feeling like nobody is really listening to me like everyone is waiting for something from me. I look at Mykel who is still in his cell, what is up with him, here I am all dolled up, and nothing. I tap on his shoulder as he glances over me. I smile, and he goes back to his cell. “What?” is all he says with a bit of annoyance in his tone, what did I do now. “What? After what just happened that’s all you're going to say?” he breathes heavily and twitches his ear, it's supposed to be my day and here he is picking a fight with me, or is it really me.”There is nothing more to say, he did wrong and he learned from it. Get over it.” My smile stays in place but I feel even worse, maybe I should just let it go, I am always holding onto things as they matter. I can’t believe him either, I know that is not the way one acts to their Luna, well more like a mate in general, but what do I know am neither yet. “I still can’t believe I get to enjoy this day! Sue come and dance with me!”, she says, completely ignoring what Mykel just said. I give my soda to Mykel but he passes me without taking it or saying anything, so I walk to the table my mom is at and set my drink, taking Samie with me. After what felt like hours of just enjoying ourselves the music is turned off.

Everyone that was dancing all over the place stopped, and Alpha Jaime took his stand. I looked at my gold watch to see it’s 11:58, almost time for the big reunion. I actually bounce my feet up and make a little happy dance, Kia smiles and laughs at my silly happy dance. “Pack members who will receive their wolves by the end of tonight's full moon, please step outside to welcome your wolf, everyone else can walk to the front of the cement area, once we have our newest members and they have sworn their alliance, we will have our pack run. Thank you all, for your attendance. This is it! I am finally going to have my wolf, my wolf is so close by, I hold on tight to Kia who is now nervous, ou no. I hope she doesn't get a small panic attack, Alpha Lame is always being strict with Omegas, Kia is no exception, I walk holding hands with her to feel a bit calm. Once we are outside the clouds above are hiding the moon, wired. The moon is usually visible in the time of the change, I stand next to my girl, hugging her tight. I look around to see if Mykel is near to have a small pep talk, but I don’t see him. I see my mom from afar waving as Samie jogs to us, Kia is now shivering and my head starts to hurt even worse than when I talked about that kids story, it feels like a migraine but twice as worse. Samie pulls my hand and I see her hand has a swirling thing around it, I look at it mezmerised not paying attention to my surroundings. Then I feel it the moon’s shining light, I look behind me and the head hack gets even worse, I hold on to my head from exploding, not seeing Kia is shifting to her wolf, all omegas are your typical gray wolf, none of them are of another color, unless they are mated to another class. Kia actually shifted to a beautiful sandy colored wolf, she howled when she shifted, but I didn’t shift at all. I look at Samie and neither does she. I look around to see my mom but she is being held by Dante and I try to see Mykel but have no luck. All the other people here also shift into their respected wolves, I hug myself as I hold on my tears, I have no wolf. “It’s okay Sue mom did say this might happen, don’t feel bad”, I nod at Sam so I don’t feel even more stupid. I stay still but then other wolves come around snickering and pushing me till I fall on the ground. Really? Pushing a wolfless she wolf after one's first shift? I broke crying on the floor, nobody, not a single person cares that I have no wolf. I cry hard and Kia places herself to protect me seeing that the others want to make fun of me. I then see Callum jog to Kia, “Hey shhh easy Susie won’t get hurt sweetheart I promise, I knew you were my mate.” he tells Kia who purrs at his sweet words. I clean my tears from having them ruin my makeup, I doubt I did a good job at that, “congratulations to you Kia and Callum, you two make a happy couple.” I say with envy and cold words still on the floor when Samie comes near me. “Hey you don’t get to act so bi**** with us, wolves” those words hurt more then I wanted to admit. It was just the Beta but that hurt so much, I am a Gamma and Luna’s daughter with no wolf. I see a pair of shoes walk towards me and I can see they belong to none other then Alpha Jaime, please no more. I get it I am a nobody, I have no right to be here just make it quick, make it quick Alpha. I repeat to myself. My mother walks up to me with Alpha Dante, “Sue are you okay?” my mom asks as if she doesn’t know how hurt I am that everyone but me got their wolves, I can’t hide my pain and start to cry all over again, my mom hugs me as I keep crying. “Where is Mykel?” I ask her now, slowly giving up on the idea that I am going to be happy with my new best friend. “I’m not sure we haven’t seen him since the rays of the moon came out and Kia shifted first then anyone.” awesome, so everyone’s attention was towards me either way. He didn’t leave me did he? My eyes start to get a fresh pair of tears as it hits the idea that can only fit my pathetic moment right now, I have no wolf, my boyfriend left me and now I have to be rejected as an outsider member for not having a wolf, please just end me now. Alpha Dante comes near us and I am a bit scared as to what is going on. I look at my hands covered in my dark makeup, I try to clean my hands in something and Alpha Dante gives me his front pocket handkerchief, I use it and keep it. “Well I will start the initiations first and then when Miss Drama Queen is over and done we will follow as the pack laws are well known to follow.” he says in a really annoyed voice, greate I have him on my case already. “Callum, congratulations on finding your mate, Kilala Emerys, are you ready?” the Alpha asks her, she nods with her ears down, she shifts back to finalize her initiation, Callum gives her his jacket as soon as she shifts. I stand to watch as my friend gets to have everything I won’t be getting, I don’t hate her but it hurts me to know I won’t be a part of this. “I, Alpha Jaime Larson of the Small Moon Pack, welcome you Kilala Emerys as my Betas mate.” He slices his hand with a silver and gold knife, it looks Victorian and then he slices her hand, shaking their hands. I feel a power course from Alpha Jaime to Kia, she looks more fit, stronger even. She looks at Callum who is smiling like a fool in love and she has a new aura around her, I can feel her strength from my standing. He goes a bit back and waits for the rest of the wolves to be welcomed and initiated, Kia and Callum leave to head inside. I stand there looking at their direction, knowing I will never have that. Crying my eyes out gave me puffy red eyes, still looking at the direction Kia and Callum went, Mykel didn’t even say he wanted to end things with me, he just dropped out and left. I hear Alpha Dante clearing his throat, I move my eyes to him as Jaime also walks to us, it feels like only a minute passed when I look at my clock it says 2am, greate. “Seeing as you will be put to outcast but staying as part of the pack, would you rather come live with us?” He asks in a really gentle voice and for a split second I felt I was important to someone but he is just my step dad. What the hell does he know about how I feel. “Sue my little baby girl, I am here you know I will never leave you hunny.” My mom tells me to soothe my hand. I hate being pitied because my dad, in this I know I'm like my dad, he doesn’t say anything but he also doesn't make it worse, when I am sad and stuff like that I hold it. I don’t like showing others they got me but this one is very hard to hold. I look at my dad with broken eyes, “If you want to go, you can Sue, I will be here if you ever need me.” I lick my lips and taste the salt of my tears, nobody gives me a moment to answer as Alpha Jaime arrives with his own answer. “Since you have chosen to accept being part of The Green Pack of Alpha Dante then I will transfer you to him. Easier for me and a much calmer mind that my pack won’t have a weakness like you.” He says in front of my parents and everyone in my pack house. I have no words of my own from how much I regret having to stand here alone. I snap, “Fine, Alpha Dante I accept to move to your pack.” As soon as my words left me the last one hit my head and my heart heavy enough to make me hold on to my mom a bit tighter. “I Alpha Jaime Larson, Reject you Susie Brown as my Mate and Luna of the Small Moon Pack.” I felt my heart being shot and plunged into pure cruel pain, Jaime was my mate… my mate? A cloud of green dust covers Alpha Dante, my mom, myself and then I see it to be Samie, all of this while my heart is slowly becoming ashes from my humiliating rejection. 3 years later

Jaime POV “Callum!” I yell for his attention after giving him a punch on his face. Training to stay in the game and on top of that, distracting myself as usual. I am so tired of having to do anything just to get that person out of my head. ‘If you would have waited on her, we would have been in a better state.’ Kai tells me with a growl at the end, as he moves to the back of my mind. I have been in celibacy for almost 3 years, that is except 2 months ago. It’s only 8pm in the night in our third training of the week. ‘Even if it’s true, we are better off with our chosen Luna, no point in being ashamed of having a good Luna.” I tell my wolf, surprised he answers, as I duck a kick and keep my defenses up. ‘It is wrong, she not mate.’ Are the only growling words he gives me. I hold on to Callums leg and twist it to the side. I hit one head with another of two other warrior’s, I hate my wolf when he acts like that. We have a strong Luna, she has even made changes that made our ways of living so much stronger and more complete. He should be proud of her and move on like me, but no. He is stuck on his old mate. The one who was pampered like a poodle, the one who acted like she owned everyone and handled it all like a- a. ‘Goddess? A Queen? Say it Jaime, you love her too.’ Kai says. “Ou for the love of it all Kai, stop nagging at me over a stupid poodle!” I yell out as I hit the shoulder of one warrior with my fist, hearing its shoulder pop, “It's been 3 years for crying out loud! Grow up!” he growls in response, I need him but he clearly gives no importance to me. “Kai still giving you a hard time?” Says Callum with a snicker on his face, I catch up my breath from my internal fight. “Daddy!” yells Cree, Callum’s 3 year old son, after he marked and mated Kilala she got pregnant and had Cree. Now they are waiting on another baby, a girl. He hugs Callums leg and smiles with giggles. He picks his son up to hold on his hip, us being in speedo’s makes us look like men from those types of calendars. We prefer this over other types of clothes this way less clothes are shredded and humans never get their curiosity towards us, accidents can and have happened, specially towards hunters. I get to the center where everyone else is fighting, I place a small green back on a warriors speedo, these have pockets that help us train. “Rundown!” The warriors take off trying to find who is the spy, the one with the green bag. I was about to run after them till I see the shoulders of Mykel leaning on the door with both his arms and legs cross. “Callum, supervise for now. Seems our neighbor has felt like visiting”. I take my towel and get up the stairs. “Yes Alpha.” He takes off and his son run’s to the far side where his mom is, I stand in front of Mykel after cleaning up the sweat from my face I extend my hand at him. “Seems your training is as harsh as ever.” He reply’s dryly. “We can’t all depend on grandpa for training.” I smirk at his annoyed face, he is almost always here and rarely in my pack house, always over seeing the building. I should feel threatened but to be honest I have been searching in his own pack, he is very proud of how he guards his pack but I have send rogues to attack his pack and not one came back. So to be on fair grounds, I called the elders on these suspicions, he hated that. Two years ago we had a conflict that almost got us in a war but we dropped it because he agreed in helping my pack after dating my mate for a year, ‘that is on you, you allowed him to date mate’ Kai throws at me, like I was already expecting that. The dog has got one big fight against anything I do, but enough of that I need to see what he wants. Haven’t seen him for a year and 2 months. We enter the pack house, passing the rooms to get to my office, as soon as we arrive at my desk he starts. “We need to make preparations to test the builded wall.” He says in a calm voice, jokes on him that I already did but I will surprise him with something else. “I agree.” I hit the intercom to the direct line to the elders. “Goodnight Elder Howl, it has been a while. How have you been?’, I ask with a little relief, Mykel looks pale, good. I don’t know how he actually believes I am the Alpha to have him take me for a fool. He is up to something and I am not going to be used. ‘Well it’s been a stressful week for my family with the surprise of the orphan boy within the island and the other two young boys who lost their own homes.” I can hear his stress and anxiety about that, three children within a week to take responsibility for. “If anything you or the council is in need of please inform me, I am sorry for interrupting you in these difficult times”. I say sincerely, any job of an Alpha is a hard one to take, we take our jobs as if it’s our own life. “I was hoping to ask to be helped but if it is too much, would you kindly direct me to another elder that is not my uncle.” I ask firmly but respectfully, it is disrespectful for any Alpha to overuse power especially to the pack, my uncle is the first elder of the organization. “It would be best to redirect you, Alpha Jaime, allow me to contact Pezi Miller, may I ask to what the call is for?’. He asks me with a curios but tired sigh and there is where I can see Mykel seething. “I need a group of trackers to make sure the wall Alpha Mykel builded is safe for my pack, I have no intention of doing anything out of hate but my pack deserves to be safe just as his own, if not more.” I state with a firm voice in my petition. He takes a small pause and then hit the speaker button, I know because I heard another person breathing near him. `` What do you say to that Pezi?”. He says with a small amusement to his tone, I sit on my chair that’s nice and cold, Mykel has his now fingers in his pants, having a death stare to my telephone as he too takes a seat. ‘Seems like a good idea, I will be there tomorrow morning to have the full details of it all, please invite Alpha Mykel over.” I smile at this choice of words, I see his face not moved at all making me curious on his answer. “Hello Elder Pezi, it’s Mykel.” His answer makes the two elders mumble on the other side, clearly taken back by the sudden greetings, I have my hand on my cheek as the other is near the phone. ‘Hello Alpha Mykel, I trust you heard what is needed from this conversation?”. The look Mykel gave me said he took the shot and is skipping like a happy little girl all over my patio. “Crystal clear Elder Pezi and Elder Howl”. He says holding back his growl, so close at giving me the idea that he is super happy to be in this. He presses between his bridge between his eyes in frustration, “We will see each other tomorrow then. Goodnight Alphas.” They hang up from their end.

Jaime POV “Having a hard time there?” That comment snapped Mykel out of his thoughts, I press the button next to my calls and asked for an omega team to prepare two bedrooms one for Elder Pezi and the other for Mykel, ones I was assured it was taken cared of I stepped out of my chair. I walked out to the side where he was still sitting, his hand on mouth, eyes fixed on my phone and his other hand in his pocket. “ Mykel, I am a good actor and even better Alpha, don’t worry too much about me and go get ready for your interview, see you tomorrow morning Alpha” I get off the side of the desk I was leaning on. He says nothing, just gets up and walks out with a pace, I walk up to my house, I had the construction team of my pack do this, I have a very small pack but they are everything to me. I’m aiming to building up my pack, I need a good alliance but my human ambitions really did a number in that. ‘We can get mate, she can help us.’ Kai tells me knowing well I do not approve. I open the door to my house after the hand print allows my entry, the house is all windows with the front having a dark gray color to help hold certain windows, my house is in a cave literally, the outs of it looks like a house stuck in the cave. Ones in, there’s a stair case going downstairs where the pool, the guests with gaming area is and another one going upstairs where my bedroom with my office is, there’s extra two rooms for my future pups, my mates office as well as a mini kitchen, then there’s a direct line that heads to the main kitchen and living room, where there’s a fireplace out of stones. The bottom bottom holds all my cars, the back is a clear beautiful view of the back forest, there’s a clearing then the entrance to the woods. My home is controlled by me, I can give access to others to enter or not, not even my current mate has access to the house. Speaking of, where could she be. I go up to our room and as I open the door I see her sleeping in the bed, she is currently 2 months pregnant and I can’t wait to have my pup here. ‘She is not mate, that pup, I’m not sure.’ Kai rehearses his lines over and over again, never giving up on the idea that our chosen mate tricked him into going all the way with her. ‘At least we are having our pup you can’t deny me that old timer.’ I tell him as I pick some clothes to go to bed, I take a good time taking the dirt and sweat off my body, been training every week and I am so glad it’s Friday. *BOOM* The house starts to shake, I hold on to the tiles but slip and fall in the shower. ‘Callum! What is happening?!’ I mind link my Beta. My chain of command is very tight and I don’t allow outsiders to talk to us like other Alphas do, I’m very protective of my companions. ‘The wall, it’s bombed it’s falling apart and Alpha, Rogues are heading this way! We are outnumbered! What do we do!?’ I can hear his panic and I can feel my own rising. ‘Get everyone to the bunkers, we need our warriors to defend the week, all omegas who don’t know how to fight, elders, children, pregnant women and those who are handicapped go in the bunkers, any she wolf that knows how to fight and any wolf as well goes to help our warriors, have the hospital ready for an attack.’ I mind link my beta. ‘On it!’ He cuts off the mind link and another shake goes in my house, I mind link my Gamma, he is the one who has the contacts of other packs who are our alliances. ‘Xandros, report to me this instant!’ I finish bathing and go out of the bathroom, I open the door and my mate is awake but puking in the small trash can, I go to hold her and rub circles on her back, I need to go and help my pack. ‘Yes Alpha? I’m contacting our neighbors for their support, so far we have the Paw Pack who will be here in 4 hours, the Silver Moon Pack in 6 hours along with the Red Moon, Moonstone and The Green Pack.’ Did my Gamma just said Green Pack? I kiss my mates forehead and go to get my phone that’s in the bathroom when I feel something sharp from the back of my head, the last thing I saw was the bottles flying out, the cabinets opened up and stuff getting smashed on the floor. *BEEP* *BEEP* I try opening my eyes but close them instantly, the bright light of the room is piercing and it catches me off guard. My head hurts, as if someone hit me with a bat. I try again to open my eyes but I give up. Rather take my chances and rest. ‘Kai? Are you there? Talk to me old boy?’ I get no responses. I need to obtain my strength, my body doesn’t hurt just my ungrateful head. I need to stay sane. Whatever is going on might have to be put on hold, I close my eyes and turn to sleep after hearing the beeping my head was starting to hurt even more then it was. My house was under lockdown and I remember that I had nobody in the house, my mate was sleeping then she was picking in the trash, what could have happened that I am now in this situation. “Relax buddy, I have the pack secure with the help of the Elders, the other Alphas are getting here and Mykel is in the dungeons cellar till this mess is over, rest.” I hear Callum tell me and with that I rest, but what if my mate.

Susie POV 3 years before the attack on the pack, just arrived at the green pack. I see Samie, or whoever this person is, take that dust away from me and my mom. I am so disoriented that I have no idea what to believe, I have no desire to feel anything. I just want to go and crawl under a bed and lay there till, god knows when. I stay quiet even though I know I should say what I feel, I should be angry, I should be a lot of things but I am just plain tired. “Sue, sweety, how are you feeling?” My mom asks me as she tries to get near me, I haven’t been here in a really long time, I know where my room is so I just turn my heel and go to my room, I lock myself in it because I don’t want anyone. I just want to stay here and let everything consume me. Why is it that anything I do to help, to be a better daughter, friend and even partner makes me live thru worse things, not even my own wolf wants me. I don’t even care to learn if she will ever come, I have lost all my hopes. I’m going to bench watch cold cases and eat like a pig. I need comfort and I know being in my room will give me that. “Sue? Can I come in?” Samie asks from the out of my bedroom door, I change into my sweat pants and jacket hoodie shirt, I put on my bunny puffy socks, I let my hair free fully after that I slip under my covers, I start crying, I let it all out and from that I fall asleep, never answering her. That went on for two more days, I need to stay here for a while longer is what I would have liked, I hear the door being knocked on and then it swings open. In comes my mom with Samie. I turn to face the wall of my room, under my covers. “Susie, honey. You need to take a-” I cut her off, I hate when I am suffering and all I get is to be told what to do, no looking to comfort me, no asking me what topping I want, that makes me supper angry. “No you need to leave me the hell alone, I don’t need to be told what to do or expect. Go to your mate and do it to him, leave me alone.” I say with tears going down, knowing strongly I don’t have a mate because I don’t have a wolf, I start to cry even harder. “Susie, we need to tell you things are important but we can’t if you still feel this hurt, we don’t want to hurt you, your mom means well, it maybe difficult but we are here if you need us” that's all she tells me, I hear her take steps back and I can feel my mom do the same. I hear the door close and I am stuck again in the same place. Three in the morning and I get out of bed to go to the kitchen to get some soda, pizza and then go back to watch horror movies, what I wasn’t expecting was bumping into someone. “Auch, what’s the big idea in hitting me? Can’t you look in front of you?” I am annoyed at the big brut, it felt like I hit a person, when I look my embarrassed face starts to show. “Same to you, can’t look with your eyes close Princess?” Comes an energized guy, he sounds agitated about this, I was simply walking and he came out of nowhere. “Princess? Listen here I have had enough guys acting all Alpha on me. Get your sh** and get out of my sight.” I say with one hand on my hip and the other on my head rubbing the bridge of my nose, that was a hard hit. “Susie right?” His voice tries to sound all hard and difficult to get, I hate guys that act like they can take it all and be like nothing. What is up with guys these days? “That’s right and you are?” I say flat out and with no fu*** given. “Neo, can’t believe you don’t even know the names of the people in your pack. We see all doomed.” Answer Neo a bit sour. I walk to the nearest light switch, and as soon as I switch it on there’s a slim teenager, not all muscles but he looks good, he reminds me of Alpha Lame. Grate. He moves to the side while I keep rubbing my nose, knowing everyone’s names of this pack. I am a horrible step daughter. I left to another’s pack and was in a relationship with another pack and I’m now back where I started. “Look Ne-o, I get you have an issue with being a gentleman so I will just go.” My voice comes out with a yawn at the end, not even considering it’s freaking two in the morning. “Oh no, I'm a gentleman but I am also no pushover. You can’t bump into others and act like a brat. Say you're sorry and I will let you go.” He steps in front of me, as I try to leave. “Why? You bumped into me?” I say to him straight he is not that tall 5.09 tops, why is he being difficult? “No” he crosses his hands on his bare chest. So I push myself to go behind him. He holds me in place. “Why are you having such a difficult time just doing something so simple?” He tilts his head and raises his eyebrows at me. Are you for real? “Let go of me or I will scream!” I say a bit louder than I was intending but I’m so drained I just want to go to bed again after stuffing myself from food, I wasn’t aware I started crying again. “Hey hey hey, no crying. Look, all I was asking was for a small apology, geese you big baby get out of my sight then, see if I care if you get in trouble.” He lets go of me and I speed to the kitchen, jerk.

It was so good to see stacks of pizza, ice cream and pastries. They all smell incredible and I missed the ocean candy they get delivered from the small islands around. I grab everything and like 3 liters of soda to go to my room, I have the lights on so I don’t bump again to unwelcome guys or people in general. As soon as I arrive to my room, I set everything up and when I turn I face Neo. Can’t the guy leave me alone for crying out loud, I have been rejected enough from two guys and when I need no guy is when he shows up. Ugh. My face falls at the sight of him, he however doesn’t look fased, not even for a second. “Get out of my door frame.” It’s like having a baby brother but worse, it’s a man child. “I’m sorry for making it worse. I heard from the Luna you got double rejected and your wolf less. I wasn’t expecting that.” He says nervous and awkward I think, I don’t even know nor do I care, my mom always tells others my business as if she has it all together. “That’s none of your retarded business. Get out.” I am done with this, if he won’t go then I will make him go. “What? Look if you need a friend I’m here, I’m the Betas son…” He starts his conversation but I’m done with talking so I push him out, he looks at me with a shocked face, what? Mykel used to do that all the time to me and I got used to it. I shut the door and go to bed to finally be at peace. I am so done with this. I don’t care if I ever get my wolf. I don’t mind becoming that cat lady everyone fears or embraces, all I want is just to breathe on my own terms. I don’t have a clue at what time it is but I know it’s day. I get up and see my room is clean, who the hell got in my room now, I breath heavy and see my mom at the door, I’m done. “Why is it so hard for you to freaking leave me alone?! Am I asking you to commit a crime with that?!” I yell with anger in my voice, at the audacity of how I am being ignored. “Susie respect me, I only worry for you. The things that happened to you aren’t easy and I care” she says dryer then I thought she would. “No, you just don’t want to hear or deal with me. Get out of my room Reemy.” I almost never use my mom's name only when I have had enough. I get up and go to the door to close it but before I do the door hits something, when I see it’s Alpha Dante’s hand on the door. Okay, now her mate is coming to save her, nobody listens to me and now nobody cares for what I want. “Susie, come to my office this instant.” She talks roughly while giving my mom a glare eyes, I put in my fluffy sandals and get my cell that I haven’t checked in days. As we walk to his office, my cell shows more then 317 texts, messages and voicemails. I block Mykels number and information. I’m done with that guy, I only leave it on my cell because like Jaime he is also an Alpha… Jaime. Just by saying his name it makes my chest hurt. “Take a seat.” He says as the door is staying open and one’s more my mom is in the room, shocker. But I wasn’t expecting Samie to be here or the Beta with his kid, I take my seat and look at the desk. “Now, I know you are still morning the triple rejection but I’m not going to have you stay in it either. Susie, your a Gammas daughter and a Lunas daughter, granted I never had my own children but I was a kid ones.” He starts with his speech, I breath out hard. Done with all of this. “Okay.” Is all I answer with, it’s all I say till I get back to my room, where I am safe. “Susie, you will be Alpha of this pack, you do know that right?” He says it plain and I’m not moved. I would gladly give it to the dude that bumped me last night. “Okay.” I can see my mom getting annoyed at me and disappointed. Good, I’m making myself clear with this. “Neo is a good man, h-“ I cut him off like a knife. “He bumped into me last night didn’t even try to be respectful to me and was being a total sore eye and you call him a man? Wow do I misjudge people wrongfully.” My mom was about to say something and so was Neo when Alpha speaks ahead. “Susie.” Alpha says with tone. “Yes?” I move my hand to scratch my leg that’s hitching me, I need to wax my legs. “Your mom is my second chance mate. Did you knew that?” He says holding her hand, yes I knew because I grew up having other people tell me what to expect and how to live my life while my so called parents were to busy enjoying their own life. “Yes I knew. I also know you can’t have kids because your first mate made you have your cables switched permanently and I also know I had to live with you while you focus fully on Reemy. Also to finish this drama of yours, I left to get away from you two. Not to be received again. But it was either this or go rogue, goddess forbid a Gamma and Lunas daughter go rogue.” I say the last part in full sarcasm, he isn’t happy but I don’t care. Considering my position in my life going rogue wouldn’t be a horrible thing.