第1章
The apartment I shared with my fiancé, Ryan Carter, was supposed to become our home after the wedding.
But four years in, I was still nothing more than a temporary visitor.
Because every access card Ryan ever gave me was a temporary guest pass.
The thing deactivated every few days.
And whenever it failed at the elevator, I had no choice but to climb seventeen flights of stairs.
I'd complained more times than I could count.
Ryan's answer was always the same—impatient, dismissive.
"They only issue one permanent resident card. What's the big deal about climbing a few stairs?"
I put up with it for four years.
Until the day I twisted my ankle, standing in the stairwell with two heavy bags of groceries, shaking from the pain.
Ryan's phone rang and rang. No answer.
Then I heard it—his laugh, mixed with Sophie's, echoing from just outside the elevator.
Sophie swiped her card without hesitation. The screen lit up instantly:
Resident access verified.
She smiled. "I'm here every day. Might as well be my own place."
The motion-sensor lights clicked on, and that's when they spotted me—crumpled on the steps like something discarded.
A beat of awkward silence. Then Ryan jumped in with an explanation.
"Soph comes over a lot. Her guest pass probably just happened to work today."
I didn't argue.
I dragged my injured foot to the property management office.
The woman behind the desk pulled up the system, and her expression shifted—uncomfortable.
"Mr. Ryan Carter is the registered owner. The second permanent resident listed for this unit is Sophie Reed."
I froze.
"What do you mean?"
"Ms. Sophie Reed is registered as an authorized co-resident. Your name does not appear on the official resident list. You only have visitor-level access."
The stairwell had been suffocating in the summer heat.
But I was shaking from the cold.
Four years I'd lived here. And in the building's official records, I didn't exist.
I didn't go screaming to Ryan for an explanation.
Because that elevator? I was never riding it again.
…
When I got back to the apartment, Ryan was half-kneeling in front of Sophie, sliding a brand-new pair of soft house slippers onto her feet.
He saw me and frowned.
"Where'd you go? Where are the groceries?"
Sophie wiggled her toes and smiled sweetly.
"My heels were killing me, so Ryan picked these up for me. Claire, you're so lucky—your fiancé is the sweetest."
I looked down at my own ankle. Swollen. Purple.
Half an hour ago, I'd begged Ryan to come downstairs and help me.
His response: "Soph came all the way over. Stop dawdling and get back here to cook."
So my pain could be ignored.
But Sophie frowning slightly? That was something he couldn't bear.
I took a deep breath and tossed the dead guest card onto the coffee table.
"Ryan. Explain."
His eyes flickered.
"Card died again? I'll get you a new one."
"The property office says this apartment only has one permanent resident slot besides you."
I stared him down, every word deliberate.
"Why is Sophie listed as the authorized co-resident?"
The living room went dead silent.
Sophie stood up, eyes brimming red.
"Claire, there must be some mistake. I had no idea—"
Ryan cut her off sharply, stepping in front of her like a shield.
"It's just a housing registration. You really had to bring this up in front of her? You know how much Soph cares about you!"
I laughed. Bitterly.
"The co-resident registration requires the owner to submit it personally. Did the property office fill that out for you too?"
His face went dark.
"Yeah. I registered her. So what?"
"Soph works late sometimes and crashes here. Giving her the permanent card just made things easier."
"You already have a guest pass. It's not like you can't get in at all. You're my fiancée—you're family. Is this really worth making a scene over?"
第2章
Four years.
I'd climbed seventeen floors with a burning fever.
I'd curled up on those concrete steps, doubled over from cramps, and climbed seventeen floors.
The card had failed more times than I could remember. I'd begged him, over and over, to fix the access issue for good.
Every single time, the same answer:
"I'll get you a new one. Stop being so dramatic."
Sophie reached for my arm.
"Claire, it's just a keycard. Don't fight with Ryan over me…"
I yanked away from her.
"Don't touch me. You make me sick."
Ryan's hand shot out and shoved me hard.
"Watch your mouth!"
My back slammed into the corner of the table. White-hot pain crawled up my spine.
The last bit of warmth in my chest went completely cold.
And Ryan? His first instinct was to check Sophie's wrist—the one I'd shaken off.
In that moment, something inside me died.
I went to the bedroom and packed my ID, my laptop, my things.
Four years of living together, and everything I owned fit into a single suitcase.
Ryan leaned against the doorframe, watching me with cold eyes.
"Threatening to leave again?"
"Claire, you're an adult. Can you stop being so childish?"
I zipped the suitcase shut.
"I'm not throwing a tantrum."
"I'm calling off the engagement."
He blinked. Then let out a cold laugh.
"Fine. Go."
"Let's see how long you last without me."
I wheeled my suitcase into the elevator without looking back.
He was probably certain I'd do what I always did—cry in the hallway and wait for him to come after me.
But this time, the elevator doors slid shut.
Seventeen floors down. No resident card required to leave.
I watched the numbers tick lower, and my eyes burned.
Getting into his home had been so hard.
Leaving him was this easy.
Once I checked into a hotel, Sophie's messages flooded in.
"Claire, I already gave the keycard back to Ryan."
"He's been under so much pressure at work lately. That's why he took it out on you. People always hurt the ones closest to them. Don't blame him."
"You two have seven years together. You've been engaged for two. He's really hurting right now. Can you please just come back and talk to him?"
I stared at that last line, and my blood ran cold.
Sophie and I had known each other since high school. Twelve years.
When she couldn't get a cab on a rainy night, I was the one who felt bad for her—who asked Ryan to drive across the city to pick her up.
When her boss gave her a hard time at work, I was the one who asked Ryan to step in.
I'd always believed they got along because they both cared about me.
Now I understood. I was the one who pushed them together with my own hands.
Close enough that my fiancé became her shoulder to lean on.
Close enough that the home I thought was mine became hers.
And I was the one left over.
I didn't reply. I blocked her.
Maybe it was all the emotional upheaval, but my stomach revolted that night. Everything I ate came right back up.
The next morning, I booked an appointment at a nearby medical center.
While I was waiting for my blood work results, I spotted Ryan outside the imaging center.
He was crouching beside Sophie, holding a bottle of water in one hand, draping his jacket over her shoulders with the other.
The look on his face—anxious, tender—was one I had never seen before.
I turned to leave.
Ryan saw me.
His tall frame blocked my path.
"Oh, so now you show up at a hospital?"
His eyes blazed with fury.
"Soph gave the keycard back and insisted on taking the stairs—just like you. She fell and nearly fractured a bone!"
"Are you happy now, Claire?"
Four years, I'd climbed those seventeen floors more times than I could count. He called me dramatic.
Now Sophie tripped once, and somehow that was my fault.
I swallowed the nausea rising in my throat.
"I didn't ask her to return the card. I didn't ask her to take the stairs."
"Move."
Ryan grabbed my wrist.
"You're coming with me to apologize."
第3章
"I'm not going!"
I fought against his grip, but my body was already wrecked. I was no match for him.
He dragged me to Sophie by the wrist. It felt like my bones would snap.
Sophie looked at me, eyes glistening.
"Claire, don't blame Ryan. I just lost my footing."
"That permanent keycard should've been yours all along. I shouldn't have taken it. I shouldn't have made you feel like I was taking your place."
With every sentence she spoke, Ryan's expression grew colder.
He squeezed my wrist tighter.
"Apologize."
My face was white with pain.
People around us were staring.
Finally, I heard my own voice—dry, hollow.
"I'm sorry."
Sophie grabbed my hand immediately, smiling with that effortless grace of hers.
"We've known each other twelve years. How could I blame you?"
"As long as you and Ryan don't fight because of me, I don't mind getting a little hurt."
Only then did Ryan let go, satisfied.
In that moment, his eyes held a flicker of certainty.
Like he'd just confirmed that no matter how hard I pushed back, I'd always fold. Just like every time before.
I pulled my hand away, fighting the wave of nausea, and turned to leave.
Ryan followed a couple of steps.
"Alright, I'll drive you home—"
A weak moan from behind him.
"Ryan, my head really hurts…"
Ryan stopped mid-stride and turned back without hesitation.
"Soph, what's wrong? Where does it hurt?"
He didn't even glance at me. Just tossed the words over his shoulder:
"Claire, go talk to the property office and get a new guest pass."
"Once Soph's feeling better, I'll come find you."
I almost laughed.
He still didn't know.
I was done wanting that keycard.
And I was done wanting him.
My phone lit up. Test results were in.
The blood work showed pregnancy.
A follow-up early ultrasound confirmed it. Approximately six weeks.
The doctor's voice was gentle.
"The results are consistent with roughly six weeks of pregnancy."
She paused.
"Is there anyone you'd like us to contact?"
Through the half-open door, I heard a nurse call out:
"Sophie Reed? You can come in for your exam now. Your partner is welcome to join you."
Sophie looked up at Ryan.
He didn't correct the word partner. Just followed her inside.
I pressed my hand to my stomach and fought the sting behind my eyes.
"No."
"There's no one to notify."
On my third day back at the office, the usual chatter died the second I walked in.
I was a senior project manager at a consulting firm here in Chicago. Sophie and I were on the same team—and we'd been competing for the same promotion.
Six months ago, a client I'd worked with for years relocated to a consulting firm in Seattle.
Before he left, he'd asked me once if I wanted to follow.
I turned him down.
All he said was: "If you ever want to leave, call me."
I never thought I'd remember those words six months later.
My coworkers were whispering, throwing me uneasy glances.
I pulled aside my closest colleague.
"What happened?"
She hesitated, then handed me her phone.
In the company system, the client proposal I'd spent three months building—the one I'd sweated over—was now submitted under Sophie's name.
The system log showed her upload timestamp was earlier than mine.
My version, submitted after hers, looked like the copy.
HR had already sent the notice:
Pending the internal investigation, I was placed on paid administrative leave.
My blood went cold.
That proposal had been saved on my personal laptop. Never officially submitted.
The only person who knew my password was Ryan.
I looked up. He was walking Sophie out of the HR conference room.
I charged at him and shoved him.
"Why does she have my proposal?!"
第4章
Ryan's back slammed against the wall. The sound turned every head in the office.
Sophie's tears fell on cue.
"Claire, I know you want the promotion, but even after twelve years of friendship, I can't cover up plagiarism for you."
Murmurs rippled through the room.
"The system does show Sophie submitted first."
"What the hell is going on?"
I was shaking so hard my vision kept going black.
"I spent three months on that proposal! Every data point, every chart—I did it myself!"
I locked eyes with Ryan.
"I worked on it at home until two in the morning. Every night. You saw all of it!"
"Ryan, tell them. Who's lying?"
His gaze darted away for just a second.
Then he stepped in front of Sophie.
"Enough."
"HR is still investigating. Stop taking it out on Soph."
And just like that, everything clicked.
He didn't need to tamper with the submission timestamps.
All he had to do was wait until I was asleep, open my laptop, and send the unfinished proposal to Sophie before I could upload it.
I stormed into the HR conference room and laid out everything—start to finish.
The HR director simply turned the system log toward me.
"The records show Sophie submitted first. Until the IT department completes its audit, the company won't make a final determination."
"In the meantime, you remain on paid leave."
I walked out on legs that barely held me. I had to brace myself against the wall just to move.
Ryan pulled me into the break room.
"Stop making a scene. I'll take care of you."
His voice was low, carrying a faint note of charity.
"Soph's mom is waiting on money for treatment. This promotion means everything to her."
"You're talented. Missing one opportunity isn't going to kill you."
I stared at him in disbelief.
"So you handed her my work and let me take the fall for plagiarism?"
"It's just a temporary leave pending investigation!"
Ryan's brow creased with impatience.
"Once it blows over, I'll pull some strings and find you something else."
The cold crept up from my fingertips, spreading through my entire body.
When we first got together, Ryan had held me and said:
"Claire, I will never let anyone hurt you."
Now the one grinding me into the dirt was him.
I shook his hand off and went back to clear out my desk.
The property office issued me a one-time visitor pass to retrieve the rest of my belongings from the apartment.
I walked through the door, and a wave of unfamiliar sweet perfume hit me.
The sheets on the master bed had been changed to Sophie's favorite pink. Long strands of her hair lay across the pillow.
At the bottom of the trash can—two torn condom wrappers.
Our engagement photo, the one that used to sit on the nightstand, had been knocked to the floor. Smudged handprints streaked across the glass.
I stared at the photo, and my stomach lurched violently.
So while I was being forced to apologize, while I was crying myself to sleep alone in a hotel room—they were in my bed.
My love. My friendship. Both had rotted beyond recognition.
Ryan was still texting me:
"Stop being stubborn. Come home tonight. Let's talk."
I wiped my tears and booked an appointment to terminate the pregnancy.